20-22 May 2009

haloo haloo haloo...hehe..chik..u r most welcome..thanx to all kawan2 aku gak yang sudi melayan karenah adik aku..haha..neway it was wonderful having u here..but sorry..tdo tak berapa selesa..hehe..hope dat u had a good time here..hope dat u enjoyed u stay here..tapi tu la..tak sempat nak bawak awak g jalan2 kat pantai..n tak sempat awak nak merasa burger sedap..ermm..tak pe..there will always be next time..hehe..i'm gonna miss u chik...i'm sure u gonna have lots of fun there in mmu..hehe..i'm very sure..hehe..neway..dats all bout it...

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I saw you
At the grocery store
You both looked happy
Picking out the usual
She's a carbon copy
Of everything you lost
Of everything I'm not
I guess you just forgot
How to pick 'em

If she's the one
I've heard about
I'm disappointed
If she's the reason
Why you left
I'm not impressed at all
Well
This looks like the end
Yeah
We can still be friends
Congratulations

Let me be the first
To wish you the worst
'Cause I think you
Deserve each other
Let me the curse
That creeps
Under your skin
Until your heart
Caves in
And you wish
She was me again

Well, someone had
To tell the truth
And I'm always honest
I read you
Like an open book
And it's obvious to me
She's just
The one between
Heading no where fast
Sure
It's gonna last forever

bila ku bersamamu...

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

jangan kau lepas

i would like to dedicate dis to 2 person dat have entered my life lately...

Peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepaskanku
dan jangan kau lepaskanku darimu

Ku takkan pernah tertawa
Ku takkan pernah bahagia
Ku takkan pernah merasakannya
Bila kau tak di sini

Izinkan aku berlutut mengharap kau tuk kembali
Izinkan aku berharap dirimu kembali
Dan kembali
Dan kembali lagi

kekasih yang tak dianggap

aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu
aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu
aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

selalu itu yg kau ucapkan padaku

sebagai kekasih yg tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah

aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

ku yakin kau kan berubah

it's been a while....

well..lama nya aku tak rasa bercinta..rasa suka dan duka bercinta...korang doakan la semoga tahun nie membawa sesuatu dalam hidup aku..aku dah cukup sakit menyayangi dan harap tak keterlaluan if aku cakap mencintai org yang tak boley memberi bende yang sama kat aku...aku banyak sakitkan hati dan diri aku sendiri..after family dan kawan2 aku memberi kekuatan..aku mula utk berfikir pasal diri sendiri..aku pk dan cr jalan utk buat diri aku happy..and yes..i did!aku happy skang nie tp dalam pada masa yang sama..aku takut utk jatuh lagi..aku takut tersilap langkah tanpa disedari..kenapa aku cam selalu malang dalam bercinta?aku selalu salah pilih ke?ke org yang tak tau nak menilai aku?ntah la..bila aku sayang..cinta or suka seseorg..aku akan bg sepenuhnya...sakit bile org yg aku suka,sayang dan cinta cam tak nampak apa yang aku buat..mereka seolah2 buta..tapi org sekeliling..aku tak yah cakap pun dorang tau sgt..hehe..aku tau bende2 nie tak leh mintak dan berharap..ia akan dtg dengan sendirinya..tapi...sumtimes..aku terasa...ermmm~~~~

aku keliru...

ermm...last thursday til saturday adalah hari2 yang indah bagi aku..hehe..hanya org2 tertentu je la tau kenapa..but after those days over..aku cam keliru..am i falling for him?aku rasa cam tu tapi tak tau le cam ne..tapi tu la..the moment he left on saturday..tak sampai sejam pun aku dah rasa rindu dan kehilangan..wat does it mean?after those days..aku selalu rasa nak call and sms die..and i did..aku rasa happy after that..even tho call..cakap hello n bye pun aku rasa happy..so..wat does it mean?tapi..satu hari tu..if tak silap on tuesday..aku call..tak angkat..sms tak reply..aku jd risau sgt..tak mungkin dia tinggal phone or tak perasan aku call or sms..ermm..hati aku jadi tak menentu..risau..dalam otak dah pk mcm2...rupa2 nya..he still in the seminar..and maybe bz kut compared to on monday nye seminar..ke die tak nak aku contact die lagi?ermm..pape hal pun i felt so relieved...when he finally answered my call...aku confuse dengan apa yang aku rasa skang nie..am i falling for him?aku tak nak cepat sgt..aku perlukan masa utk kenal die lagi..aku rindu die sesgt..kalo leh nak jumpa hari2..hehe..juz be with him..be in his arms was so wonderful..if makes me feel like tak nak g mane2 dah..hehe..

what a beautiful clouds...and....

yesterday before we were going out to ayah g's place..we looked up at those beautiful clouds in the sky...ermm..tak tau nak relate cerita sebenar cam ne here..well..on friday..as i was going out to fetch kakyan from her office..received a bundle of letters which dicampak oleh the postman or a despatch guy on d grass...i saw few letters for kakyan and dikchik..chik dapat sweater that she bought thru myspace and the other one was from MMU..my instinct strongly said that she got the offer...cud be they sending her all the brochures kan...i opened the envelope when i was driving and yeah!its the offer letter...she got in!congrats chik..hehe..according to the letter she have to report herself at MMU melaka campus on 7th june 2009.ermm..i called her to tell her the news coz she was in kota bharu with papa,mama and yana.

now its confirmed dat chik is going there..she'll be home for another 3 weeks je..damn la..feel so weak n sad typing all dis..cant believe dat chik is going away...sunyi la umah tu nanti..tak de sape dah nak bising2..buat bunyi yg annoying..buat bende2 sengal..n pape saje la yg mengarut...ermm..dah la..dunno wat else to say..nanti jd lg sedey..dis post mite have part two..hehe..so juz wait la...

kisah 13 May 2009

asrul and komeng beraksi...hehe

seronok mereka..hehe

asrul melayan lagu..

i dun have any idea what makes him wants to sing on dis nite...hehe

inilah bukti aku n nad went for the fire drill briefing...

ade sikit masalah technical la..hehe..tak pe..after korang enjoy looking at the pics..korang baca citer nie plak k..hehe

ermm..aku tak berapa ingat apa yang jadi pada hari nie..tp seingat aku..ptg..aku main badminton ngan nad kat bawah blok kitorang nie..setelah kami rasa cukup berpeluh...kami naik..ermm..mlm nie..tak tau nak makan pe..so..aku cadangkan masak bubur..nad pun nak join..ala..bubur bodoh je..nasi kosong then aku campur ngan dried mushroom pas tu makan ngan kicap masin..layan gak..hehe..setelah bubur masak..dan sedia di makan..aku ngan nad makan la..aku makan sambil layan movie ayat2 cinta..banyak kali dah tgk..saje je la sambil2 makan..

tetiba ade bunyi siren dan diikuti ngan org membuat announcement..cam tak berapa dgr..pas tu nad cakap.."perlu ke kita amik tau?"..aku kata.."ntah..tak yah la..blok meeting kut"..haha..namun hatiku berdetik utk mengambil tau setelah beberapa ketika..haha..nasib baik!rupenya die nak g tau..kul 8.30-9.30pm power supply utk blok nie dan maybe blok lain will be shut down due to fire drill exercise..potong betol la..org duk syok makan sambil layan movie..so..pas makan..cuci pinggan sume then kitorang mandi..siap2 then turun la..

we r joining acap,komeng,fauzul,din,amar n asrul kat bondi..but before that kitorang singgah lu kat tempat di mane we r required to gather for some briefing and fire demonstration..jakun la katakan..bukan senang nak tgk api besar2 nie..haha..pas puas tgk api..kitorang gerak g bondi...sampai2 boya2 sume dah bis makan..hehe..dorang kena gerak to MPH tolong asrul tukar tayar...aku ngan nad balik bilik sambil tunggu panggilan shisha..hehe...

pas aku kemas2 barang coz nak balik umah the next day..asrul called for shisha..we decided to go to anekarasa coz tempat tu cam chill..sunyi..best la skett...ermmm..first time aku lepak shisha ngan asrul..haha..besh la jugak..makin besh lak shisha nie..ermm..tu je la yg leh aku katakan..

enjoy dis...

haha..i juz dunno wat to say about dis..its damn funny..haha..sesapa yang tension2 or stress tu..layankan aje nie..hehe..by the way..dis could be aku n adik beradik yang lain nye next project..haha..we've done similar like dis tapi tak publish je..haha

people..if korang tau whats the title of dis song...pls pls pls let me noe k...lagu nie besh sgt..i like!!

track 14...

on last wednesday..went to shah alam in the morning to pick a 'friend' of mine then kena bawak die g kolej lagenda coz die ade interview..as we were on d way..dah bosan dgr radio..he pushed the button to play the songs in my cd..then i knew that he wanted to listen to the song SELALU MENGALAH from SEVENTEEN.at dat time lagu track 8 kut..so i said.."lagu yang u nak dgr tu kat dpn lagi"..then i was shocked when he said.."track 14"..

haha..he is such a thoughtful guy...what ever i've said and told him..die ingat aje..dats one of the criteria of a guy dat i like..hehe..tak yah citer panjang..tak yah remind banyak kali..sekali cakap..die ingat je!hehe

think...

Benarkah salahku, lepaskan kamu
Kau duga egoku, fahami diriku begini
Tiada yang sama
Yang pasti kita semua bebeza
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat aku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Kita pernah satu, aku dan kamu
Dulu itu dulu, masih di dalam ingatanku
Kini berbeza
Namun masih ku harap kau bersedia
Oo mungkinkah, kau temu bahagia

ku ingin kamu

Demi semua yang aku jalani bersamamu
Ku ingin kau jadi milikku
Ku ingin kau disampingku

Tanpa dirimu ku
Hanya manusia tanpa cinta
Dan hanya dirimu yang bisa
Membawa surga dalam hatiku

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Sentuhanmu
Bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
Yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
Dan membuatku tak kuasa

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Di setiap arung gerak
Tersimpan di hati kecilku
Bahwa dirimu terindah untukku

Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini
Menemani...

Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas
Selama Tuhan masih mengizinkan
Ku ingin selalu menjagamu

wanita yang mencintaimu

Kemarin kau putus kan mengakhiri kisah ini
Tak urung kufikirkan apa salahku pada mu
Dan ku tak mengerti dengan alasan yg kau beri
Karena mereka yg tak merestui...

Pernah ku mencoba kan ku minta kepastianmu
Namun takut kau menganggapku mengemis cinta mu
Bila kuteruskan pastinya kaukan tetap bertahan
Tak akan berubah keyakinan hati dan cintamu..

Perasaan ku yang terlanjur sudah
Tersimpan dalam hatiku
Tak begitu saja
Dapat terhapuskan
Meski kau dengan mudahnya dpt pengganti diriku
Bisakah kau menghargai sedikit perasaan ku???
Tak terhitung hari kau tak sendiri lagi....

Sebagai seorang wanita yg pernah mencintaimu
Harusnya kau tahu betapa hancurnya hati ku
Biar ku mencoba kan kuterima keadaannya
Bila ternyata kau bahagia telah berdua dengannya..

what i'm feeling rite now...

people..i dunno why..i feel so fucked up n stucked up..i cant wait to be home dis friday..tak mo dah la balik sini..i'm missing my family soo much..padahal baru jumpa..cam tak puas..i really enjoy my holiday 2 weeks ago..i dun want it to be end..but bak kata jimmy..setiap permulaan pasti akan berakhir..i dun feel happy here..rasa cam bodoh je..rasa cam tak berguna pun ye gak..or maybe i feel dat i lost sumtin here..but its ok..i'll stay strong...and i will survive...damnnn

hehe..want more?

1 Apakah benda paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
-Allah swt,parents,adik beradik,kawan2,handphone,HIPPO(kereta saya la!),MIOURE(teman tido saya),study kut..hehe

2 Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan duit sendiri?

-too many to be listed..haha

3 Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?

-mane2 aje..theres no specific place in my mind now..janji..saya bahagia and sume org happy..hehe

4 Adakah kamu dilamun cinta?

-sekarang?mungkin ye..mungkin tidak!haha

5 Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
-cant remember...

6 Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?

-lagi2 soklan pasal buku..hehe

7 Apakah nama penuh kamu?

-nik farhana nik hamdan

8 Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?

-depends..sumtimes mama..sumtimes papa..however they are the best!!more than anything...

9 Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin berjumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?

-jodoh saya...

10 Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian kamu sendiri?

-harus!especially kat hostel!tak main la mesin2 nie..tak puas..

salam perkenalan...

hello hello people!i juz created my own blog..tah la..saje je..cam best je..hehe..then later maybe instead of talking to people of what i feel..i can juz type out here to express my feelings..hehe..neway..for my first blog..lets start with dis..chik..sorry for taking dis from ur blog..hehe..it looks menarik..hehe...

Whats your name?

*nik farhana nik hamdan

When is your birthday?

*8th november 1985

How do you feel right now

*fucked up and stucked up

What did you do on your birthday last year?

*kuar g ou ngan mama,kakyan n yana.then balik umah lunch.then kuar lepak ngan kebi and d other person.balik umah g dinner lak.then kuar ngan wanie g ou.main bowling.in d same time,join kebi and the gang there

What about this year?

* i have no idea..hope it will be better..

How do you relax?

*tgk tv sampai tertdo in front of it..besh gile!

Whats your favorite book?

*as i said...i don't really read

Who was the last person to text you?

*my adik yang sengal and my roommate,nadiah

What about call you?

*komeng

Who was your last ex?

*haha...

Have you ever been drunk?

*drunk tak..'masuk air' ade la..hahaha

What did you wear last halloween?

*apa aku kisah?

When did you last cry?

*it's been a while...

Are your parents still together?

*harus!

Who did you last argue with?

*tak ingat la...

What time did you go to bed last night?

*1am plus...

Who is your best friend?

*sapa yang makan cili..terasa la pedasnya...

Do you bite your nails?

*sumtimes...

What about toe nails?

*hehe..tried before!

What are your hobbies?

*apa2 yang best dibuat...

Have you ever watched the sun set?

*yes of coz!

Where did last vacation to?

*hehe..secret!

Whats your hair color?

*dunno...tak reti nak explain..

What are you wearing?

*wat a question?hehe

Do you wear makeup?

*sumtimes..depends on what occasion...

Do you get hayfever?

*??

What music are you into?

*universal

Have you ever been out with your best friend’s ex?

*ntah..

Ever sneak out of your house?

*haha..'JAGA' kat umah alert baek punya!haha

What did you do today?

*bangun,mandi,went sumwhere with sumone,tdo jap,kuar beli makan,makan,wat blog,later..taktau lagi...

What are you doing tomorrow?

*pegy class la...

Whats the last thing you ate?

*cantonese style mee hoon

Are you a forgiving person?

*depends on the situation...

Are you mad at anyone right now?

*i guess...

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?

*yes..my roommate..

Ever had a garage sale?
*nope!

What is/was your school like?

*ntah..jauh sangat..hehe

Describe your best friend?

*tak reti la nak jawab...

Do you like your partner’s family?

*haha..partner pun tak de..

When did you last smile and why?

*few seconds ago..actually i've been smiling a lot lately...sum people know why...hehe

Have you ever cheated in a test?
*harus!pantang ade peluang..hehe

Are you scared of falling in love?

*yeah..to a certain extent...

Have you ever felt replaced?

*YES!!

Do you trust your friends?

*depends

Do you like coffee?

*selected only!i'm allergic to nescafe...

Have you had kids?

*nope!

If not, do you want them?

*dunno...

Are you brainy

*ntah...

What was the last film you watched?

*i think fast and furios 4...

Whats the time?

*1934

How old are you going to be in 7 months?

*24 years and 28 days

Was yesterday better then today?

*nope..today much better coz i was with sum1 dis morning..hehe

When did you last see your mum?

*last sunday...

Your dad?

*last sunday gak...

Your boyfriend/girlfriend?

*just now...ahaks!

Do you smile often?

*lately..yes!

Do you collect anything?

*like what?

Can you remember your dreams?

*sometimes..and it depends...

Do they come true?

*sumtimes..its like a deejavu..

Who would you kill right now if you could?

*haha..biar aku sorang je tau!i think..my adik pun tau kut...

Where were you 4 hours ago?

*was on my bed...

What song describes your life right now?

*a lot la..

Whats your biggest regret?

*ermm..sumting stupid dat i've done b4..falling in love with the wrong person..hurting my own feeling..and many more..haha

Whats your body type?

*haha..dunno..u see me..u tell me..

Do you have any scars?

*yes of coz!

What from?
*many...

What pets do you have?

*kucing yang gemok bernama LEO!!

Where do you get your music from?

*mane2 aje..

Your most recent lie

*haha..biar aku sorang je tau...

A lie you tell yourself
*....

You are embarrassed when you

*hehe..i kan pemalu!ahaks...

The memory that still makes you laugh

*a lot la...lately nie banyak...

How you picture the end of the world

*dunno la..